Where the magic truly happens!

My journey into the entertainment industry started at the Santa Monica Film Market, a place where some of the biggest names in Hollywood have walked the halls.
Men and women whose names are forever etched into the history books. I often wonder if any of them ever did it wearing six inch heels like I did.
Walking those marble floors in stilettos, trying to hold my head high, felt like stepping into a completely different universe.
As a transgender woman navigating this world, I’ve faced my share of challenges.
While attending my first Ted Talk at the film market, I was stunned to see a crowd of desperate writers rush the stage. It was like a frenzy, with everyone elbowing their way to the front in a chaotic rush. Unlike the hundreds of hopeful storytellers clutching their scripts and rushing to pitch immediately after the talk, I’ve come to realize that this kind of frantic energy often isn’t the way to succeed.
I genuinely believe that success comes from approaching things intelligently and practicing a bit of strategic patience.

If I were trying to sell a script, I wouldn’t just barge into a room during a Ted talk or sending a script blindly to a studio head with crossed fingers.
No, I’d prefer to buy my seat at the table, or in this case, secure a room at the Santa Monica Hotel and wait for the industry to come to me.
I’m not quite there yet, but I do have an insatiable curiosity about how things really work behind the scenes.

So I splurged on the Platinum Five-Day Pass and gained access to every event, private function, and after-party.
To me, that kind of access was way more valuable than rushing onto a stage with a script in hand.

I’d rather enjoy a glass of champagne and have a quiet, meaningful conversation than get caught up in the chaos of a desperate pitch.
During that week, I rubbed elbows with industry players. I listened, I learned, and I observed. Little by little, I was getting a crash course in filmmaking.
One funny moment that sticks out happened when I was riding the elevator with Rob Zombie, one of the more colorful characters in the industry. Suddenly, the doors opened and two elderly Jewish women stepped in. They looked me up and down, eyes wide with curiosity. One of them blurted out loudly, “How on earth do you walk in those things all day?” I looked down at my heels, grinning, and without missing a beat I said, “Cocaine. Lots of cocaine.”

The elevator burst into laughter, everyone inside cracking up at the absurdity. That joke led to an invitation to a party later that evening. Sometimes, a little humor and confidence can turn an ordinary moment into a memorable connection.
What I’ve realized is that success in this industry isn’t just about having the best script or the most famous talent. It’s about making genuine connections, standing out through authenticity, and sometimes, using a well-timed joke. During the Ted talks I attended that week, I saw how many people are desperate to break into a shrinking industry.

The speakers give their talks and then quietly leave, avoiding the chaos of the crowds eager to pitch.

But at the private social events, those same speakers mingle with attendees.
I had the chance to meet a few industry moguls who are not so eager to be dethroned. Those who understand their roles and play the game masterfully, holding the keys to the kingdom.
The industry can be intimidating, but it’s also full of opportunities. If you’re willing to take the leap, keep your sense of humor, and stay true to your vision, you can find your place.
Through it all, I gained a clearer perspective: if you truly love movies, make them. Make funny, meaningful, fabulous films because of your passion for the craft, not just for fame or fortune.
Whether I’m walking through Hollywood in stilettos or working behind the scenes, my goal remains the same. I want to tell stories that matter because I love it.
I’ve learned that some of the best moments happen when you least expect them, like sharing an elevator with Rob Zombie or raising a glass of champagne at a private party. That’s where the real magic begins.

Getting Serious

I realize I need help. Not the kind from a doctor in physiology, though that’s a different story altogether.

For now, I’m focusing on what it takes to succeed in this wild world of entertainment.
First and foremost, I know I cannot do this alone. Luckily, I have a very supportive cousin who has been my guiding light, helping me navigate all the pitfalls along the way. She always says, “You’ve got talent, but talent alone won’t get you anywhere. You need training, discipline, and a little bit of luck.” Taking acting seriously means investing in education. I can’t afford to wander aimlessly anymore, hoping I’ll stumble into success.
It’s time to sharpen my image, improve my skills, and really learn the craft.
Finding the right acting school was a challenge in itself. It’s not just about the curriculum; it’s about the instructor.
I remember walking into my first class feeling like a fish out of water. I was nervous, clutching my script as if it was a lifeline. The instructor, a stern but passionate woman, looked at me and said, “Let’s see what you’ve got.” I hesitated then stumbled through my lines, cheeks burning with embarrassment.
Afterward I told myself if I want to do this I need to sit in on more classes and get a feel for the vibe. Sitting in the back I observed the other students some confident others just as nervous as me. If you’re not comfortable with the environment it’s almost impossible to find the courage to perform.
And honestly although I seem to have a knack for being a total goof sometimes stepping in front of strangers still makes my stomach flip.

As an introvert I developed the persona of Miss Sarah Luv to help me break out of my shell. It’s incredible how a little makeup a confident stance and a fun alter ego can change your outlook.
One day I looked in the mirror and thought this is the real me just a little more fabulous.
Most reputable agents won’t take you seriously until you’ve completed some formal training. That’s why I was lucky to find a local acting class filled with talented instructors.

The first time I stepped onto that stage I felt nervous but exhilarated.
My classmates have been my biggest supporters understanding my gender challenges and encouraging me every step of the way. Their kindness has been a lifeline.
One evening after class I drove home buzzing with energy replaying my performance in my head. In that moment, I realized what enjoy more than acting itself is creating content. Developing a story, writing dialogue and bringing a world to life with words. It was clear that’s where my true passion lies.
If only it were that simple.
I dove down the rabbit hole and enrolled in a writing class at the university.
Now a new door has opened one filled with endless possibilities.
The thrill of crafting stories imagining worlds and expressing myself through words has become my new adventure.
Who knew that my journey would lead me here? One thing is for sure I am ready to face whatever comes next because this is just the beginning.

APPARENTLY THE ROAD TO HELL ISN’T PAVED WITH GOOD INTENTIONS

Lately I’ve been reflecting on my own experience as someone navigating life as a transgender woman I’ve realized that my transition hasn’t gone as smoothly as I hoped and honestly that’s okay.

Sometimes I find myself silently watching the world around me, people arguing over bathrooms policies and who should do what.

And honestly I keep asking myself why does this suddenly feel like such a big deal?

The truth is, I blame Caitlyn Jenner! It’s easy to point fingers so I’m doing just that. When Caitlyn stepped into the spotlight with her dramatic debut, multiple outfit changes, magazine covers and red carpet appearances, it changed the conversation and not always in a good way.

Don’t get me wrong I am proud to be a transgender woman. I’ve been living my truth long before Caitlyn made her story public. I’m glad she’s living her life openly and following her dreams. That’s what we all want right?

But here’s the reality, for the past three years I’ve felt the weight of constant scrutiny not in admiration but in judgment. Being a “normal” transgender person often means living with the hope of being accepted only to face misunderstanding or even disdain.

Some people are lucky they naturally resemble the gender they identify with making their journey smoother filled with support and acceptance. For many of us though the road is tougher. Instead of rainbows and sunshine we face double standards and misperceptions.

Why is it so hard to just be treated like everyone else? Because many still refuse to see us as just people

Yes I’m proud of my decision to transition. But I can’t help feeling that Caitlyn’s high-profile visibility has inadvertently pushed many into taking sides.

Suddenly transgender issues aren’t just personal they’ve become political footballs sparking polarization, misinformation and hurtful stereotypes. I wish people would stop choosing sides and just go back to ignoring what they don’t understand. Honestly I’d prefer if people just didn’t care about where I pee or anything else related to my identity

The last thing I want is for us to be caught up in the cultural divide. Every time the media focuses on Caitlyn it seems like the headlines turn to bizarre or hurtful narratives. Some folks now think I or others like me are somehow dangerous or inappropriate just because I need to use the bathroom.

That’s not just unfair it’s damaging! Caitlyn might be living her truth publicly, but the rest of us are still dealing with the day-to-day realities of our lives.

I’ll admit I don’t perfectly represent the “silent majority” of trans folks I work in entertainment which adds its own layer of complexity. When I started my transition, I knew there would be challenges, but I never imagined that something as basic as bathroom access would become a national debate. It’s painful to think how this affects my daughter. How does she reconcile the fact that her dad is now being labeled and sometimes wrongly based on misinformation. I hope she understands that I am still the same person just living more authentically.

I try to keep my private life private, respecting my family’s wishes. I don’t want to embarrass my parents or make life harder for my teenage daughter. I’m not a performer or a drag queen. I’m just a transgender woman, a writer trying to pass in public and live my life quietly.

My goal is simple to do my work, create content and hopefully go unnoticed for the right reasons.

Then last Tuesday something small but significant happened. I was waiting at a food truck enjoying a fish taco, when I suddenly realized no one was paying attention to me. And for a moment I felt a small spark of joy.

Even a homeless person who asked me for change called me “miss” noticing me as a woman even if she might have been visually impaired. It made me wonder, could I be passable now. Is this the path toward acceptance toward that rainbow of normalcy.

Of course like everyone else, I have good days and bad days. But moments like that remind me why I keep going.

In the end what I really wish for is simple, for people to see us as human beings—complex flawed and deserving of respect.

We’re all on our own journeys and what we need most is understanding not judgment.

 Things have been Amazingly Crazy

 

   
     

 

I started this blog to share the ups and downs of life as a transgender involved in showbiz.
It’s no secret—being in this position comes with its fair share of struggles. The stigma and bias against trans people are still rampant.
I’ve experienced everything from dropped calls to being told I’m “not interested,” so often that I’ve come to expect it. But through it all, I’ve kept smiling and simply moved on.
Recently, things have been absolutely crazy—in the best way.
I’ve continued my journey as a transgender writer, model and actress.
I truly believe that fate plays a huge role in shaping my life.
For the past two years, I’ve been letting fate guide me, and it’s brought me some unexpected opportunities. I’ve been working hard to develop my skills through acting school and college, and this past week marked another major milestone: I produced my own photoshoot.
A client I’ve worked with before asked me to model for a new product. They know my capabilities and trust my commitment, so they gave me their blessing to handle the entire shoot—production, styling, location scouting, and hiring staff.
I loved having control over every aspect of the project, and it was incredibly rewarding to see it all come together.
I’ve decided I’m not going to let others bring me down when I can just as easily lift myself up. The photoshoot was a great success, and it’s even led to a feature in a national magazine. Plus, I’ve been invited by a UK-based television company to appear in a documentary interview.
So, here’s a little cheer and a big smile from me to you!
Warmly,
Miss Sarah Luv

Three days and still stars in my eyes

Finally, I’ve caught my breath long enough to sit down and tell you about my wild, nerve-racking trip to New York City. Honestly, it was like jumping into the deep end of a pool filled with caffeine and chaos. So much happened so fast that I was basically running on nervous energy—no sleep, no rest, just pure adrenaline. I kept telling myself I didn’t want to wake up and realize it was all just a dream, but honestly, I was so busy that sleep was a distant fantasy.
My adventure kicked off at JFK, after a quick connection from San Francisco. The airport looked like it hadn’t been upgraded since the 80s—like a relic that forgot to retire. But hey, it got me where I needed to go, and sometimes, in life, not everything shiny and new is necessary.
As I stepped outside into the bustling chaos, I was relieved to see a man holding a sign with my name—not smiling, but definitely professional. For a split second, I felt like I was about to be whisked off to some glamorous rendezvous. That is until he suddenly swooped in, grabbed my bags, and started walking at a pace that made me want to jog just to keep up.
While waiting at the crosswalk (which felt like waiting for a traffic light to turn green in slow motion), I took a moment to observe the scene outside. A line of yellow cabs jostled for position, drivers shouting colorful language that would make a sailor blush. It was chaos, but in a charming, New York kind of way.
Then, just as I was getting comfortable, I was once again thrust into action—chasing after my mysterious chauffeur through a dimly lit parking garage, lugging my suitcase like a reluctant hero in a low-budget action film. Heart pounding, I was so relieved when he finally stopped at a sleek black town car and held the door open like I was some fancy celebrity.
The ride into Manhattan turned out to be surprisingly pleasant. At first, I thought my driver had a New Jersey accent, but it turned out he was from Staten Island—an honest-to-God local, and quite nice to boot.
As we cruised past familiar sights, he pointed out areas I’d heard about but never seen. Brooklyn looked cool and artsy, while Jamaica Town looked just as vibrant but apparently isn’t on most tourists’ radar. “Not a bad area,” he said, “but don’t tell the tourists.” I couldn’t help but think, “Great, I’m in the city that never sleeps, and I’m already being initiated into the insider knowledge.”
When we finally arrived at the hotel, I was greeted with what felt like a welcome fit for royalty—over-the-top friendliness, smiles so wide they could hurt. I kept thinking, “What’s the catch?” The front desk staff’s politeness was so exaggerated I half expected them to break into song. They went on about how they’d been expecting me all day, how they hoped everything was perfect, and even offered to deliver a parcel that had arrived for me—like I was some VIP.
I stood there, blinking in confusion, clutching my room key that read “Manhattan Suite,” and wondered, “Just how big is this production?”
Opening the door to my room was like stepping into a dream—or maybe a movie set. Two full stories of windows showcased the entire Manhattan skyline—the city that never sleeps, right outside my window. I stood there, mouth agape, feeling like I’d just won the lottery or was about to star in my own reality TV show.
When the porter asked if I needed anything else, I nearly shouted, “Yes! I want to stay forever!” But instead, I fumbled for a couple of twenties, threw them his way, and tried not to look too starstruck.
The room was so fancy I kept thinking, “How did I get here?” I mean, I’m just a small-town girl, and somehow, I was now in a luxury hotel, with a view so stunning I could cry.
I wanted to jump onto the plush bed, call all my friends, and brag about my “big city adventure.” But instead, I had to unpack—my trusty suitcase, packed with everything I thought I’d need for a big moment.
As I sat there soaking in the skyline, there was a knock on the door. I opened it to find the same cheerful front desk clerk, now holding a large cardboard box. I slipped him twenty dollars, grateful for his efforts, and he placed the box on the front desk with a knowing smile. I gave him a quick “thank you,” trying my best not to seem too eager. Inside was my shiny new FemSkin IV—so light I was convinced it was secretly a feather. I couldn’t wait to try it on, standing in front of those giant windows, feeling like I was about to make a major debut.
I spent the evening trying on outfits, imagining myself on the big screen, and pondering deep questions like, “Why am I doing this?” and “Where the hell is my hairbrush and razors?” Ah, yes—the eternal struggle. It’s always the little things you forget, like your hairbrush, and in my case, razors. I swear I went over my packing list a dozen times, yet somehow, those items always get left behind. So I called down to the front desk, and within moments, they sent up replacements. Relief washed over me—I was saved from becoming the bearded woman on national television.
Then came makeup time. I took my sweet time, especially on my eyes—half an hour of careful, deliberate application to avoid gluing my eyelids shut. By the end, I looked in the mirror and thought, “Wow, I actually look like I know what I’m doing.” Standing there, in front of the expansive windows, I took a deep breath and whispered, “Okay, Sarah Luv, ready or not, here we go.”
This was more than just a trip; it was a turning point.
My life was about to change forever, all thanks to a city that never sleeps, a hotel that made me feel like a star, and a moment of boldness I never knew I had. And honestly? I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

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A new chapter of an old book

Just when I’d resigned myself to a life of tirelessly running errands and dodging the wrath of the grumpy grip men (they were very grumpy), a shiny new email landed in my inbox. I opened it with caution, picturing a Trojan virus disguised as a movie script. But the email was… well, it was a contract.
A contract for me to become the *Associate Producer *.

I nearly dropped my phone in the passenger seat. My heart did a little happy space-jump! Suddenly, the endless to-do list felt like a thrilling challenge. This was it. My moment.
My flight to Florida, for the production of “Suddenly Real,” a space action-adventure flick, felt like a rocket launch into the unknown. I, a lowly (and I mean lowly) Associate Producer, had somehow talked my way onto the set in Clearwater. Little did I know, “Associate Producer” was just a fancy name for “the person who does everything but the actual producing.” My to-do list was longer than a Klingon battle report, stretching from set locations to alien troop transporters, wardrobe malfunctions (more on that later), procuring props (like a genuinely convincing-looking alien blaster that seemed to have a mind of its own), and finding stunt cars that hadn’t been totalled in previous movie stunts. Basically, if it wasn’t nailed down or bolted to the set, I was responsible for it. My shoulders felt like they were carrying the entire weight of the galaxy.
Now, the wardrobe malfunctions… Let’s just say one of the alien costumes involved a lot of shimmering fabric and an alarming tendency to cling to every bit of dust and debris on set. It was like a space-age disco ball gone rogue.
I spent more time wrestling with that jumpsuit than I did negotiating with the studio. And the alien blaster? It kept firing blanks, but not in a good way.
Every time I tried to use it, it would either jam, or make a weird whistling sound that sounded exactly like a dying walrus. I’m pretty sure the aliens would have been impressed with the realism of the prop, but the crew definitely wasn’t.
Executive Decision scrap alien hand gun use real weapons! Yes, you read that right. I’m Canadian—meaning I’ve never seen a real firearm in my life, let alone tasked to find not just one but multiple firearms in Florida. I had no idea where to even start, and I was pretty sure I’d end up on some FBI watchlist just for asking. Thankfully, an ex-military cast member (who was surprisingly generous) offered to let us use his arsenal. No judgement, but why do you have so many frickin’ guns? I mean, seriously, I’ve seen fewer firearms in a full-on war zone.
Note to Sarah:
Please return the crew van to the rental company at Tampa airport and pick up the chase car.
Done and dusted. Wait—nobody took the guns out of the back of the van.

If you want to know how weird America is, walk through an airport with guns slung over your shoulders and have no one bat an eye.
It’s possibly the craziest thing I’ve ever signed up for.
I’m not sure shooting a movie was actually permitted in my rental agreement for the very large opulent home I had rented. I’m pretty sure it specifically said not to do that, but hell, in for a penny, in for a pound.
Please just keep it low key, I am pretty sure I started the sentence with please.

Turning onto the street after picking up the get away car filled with every movie transport vehicle in Florida was an “oh crap! ” moment. Damn I am sure I said Please keep it low key as the crowd of actors and film crew spilled out onto the front lawn slipping into the driveway in a fancy sports car full of guns probably wasn’t the best look for the sleepy upscale neighbourhood that had now become awake with the full onslaught of a movie production.

The neighbours definitely looked a little bewildered as I tried to sneak in without attracting too much attention.
Despite all the chaos, there were moments of pure cinematic magic.

The crew, despite their grumbling and exhaustion, were genuinely passionate about the project. There was an unmistakable energy, a shared dream of bringing this space saga to life.
And somewhere in the middle of the madness, I started to feel like I was actually contributing, not just surviving.
Maybe this whole “Associate Producer” thing wasn’t so bad after all.

Maybe, just maybe, I was finally learning the ropes—one exploding prop and one malfunctioning space suit at a time. And yes, I did manage to get my damage deposit back.
Not bad for a girl who walked around Florida with an arsenal and survived the fall out and chaos of a Home Owners Association, surprisingly they tend to be quiet when you are standing in the driveway with guns slung on your shoulder.

I think I am getting the hang of being an American? Nope!